Grandma Bullard

So this is almost 2 years old but, I'm playing catch up with post saved in my drafts.

My last surviving Grandma past away early Wed. morning. I'm so happy for her that she is now free of pain, and she is with her husband again that she has been widowed from for 40 years! Of course even knowing this day will come and the best laid plans still don't fully prepare you for this moment. We will all miss Grandma Bullard but, are happy to know there is a huge reunion going on in heaven right now. I know the last 3 years have been hard on many people in the family. I personally am so grateful for the past few years with Grandma B. It has been no secret that Grandma and I have had our issues. And I will admitt that I have had a chip on my shoulder in regards to some hurtful things that were said most of my life. But, 3 years ago in the midst of a horrible time of my divorce Grandma called me and said "I wish there was something I could do to help, and I financially can not afford to help you so the only thing that I can think of doing to help you out, is for me to move out so that you and the kids can move in here with your mother." I was stunned and have felt guilty over her giving up her place in her home so that my kids and I would have a roof over their heads. The last 3 year It is no seceret that Grandma and I had our battles and I have had alot of guilt about her giving up her home for me. In the process however I am so thankful for the past 3 years if for nothing else for my mother. As long as I can remember my mother has been compared to her little sister who was the "Golden Child" After years and years of being told you are not perfect but someone else is, it was an eye opening experience to Grandma to actually live with someone so perfect so suddenly now finally my mother got some compliments that have been well deserved and needed for over 60 years. So I have decided that I will deal with the guilt that I have about Grandma because it makes me so happy to know that before my Grandma passed she finally truly showed her love to my mother. For that I love her and I will miss her but know she is in a better place.