Can not believe I am putting a picture of this ugly fat head on my Blog but, just have to vent and say Congrats they deserve each other!!!! So the past few days I have struggled with not letting that angry "man hater" inside of me creep back into my life because I really hate that side of me and feel I have worked to dang hard to get rid of it. But, I have to say men are definitely proving to make that a hard task. So let me begin with yes I found out that Paul got remarried I actually laughed and thought it was funny because a month ago he told me he would never get remarried again? Gee I know that telling the truth is an impossible task for him? But, then later that day a guy I work with was a total jerk to me and maybe I took what he did and said too hard because I was already irritated so I left work and went to visit my Grandma at the hospital. Unfortunately Paul and Eryn live right next door to the Hospital so then I happen to see that in their driveway is a Nice Grand Jeep Cherokee. That did it I was livid, I could not help but think that stupid car payment should be coming as child support or at least helping me to pay the daycare that I struggle to be able to pay? So I was on the verge of letting that Angry Man Hater girl out and thought I really just need to talk to a guy that is not a jerk to prove to me that not all men are jerks. So I send a text to a friend of mine (don't assume which friend for those of you who know!!) Anyways I get a RUDE response that tells me that I need to get over my ex!!! Poof there goes that idea of proving not all men are assholes? So I did a lot of thinking and trying to figure out why the realization of Paul being re-married was bothering me so much because I know for a FACT I am so far over him!!! Then it hit me of why I was so mad, My children now have a STEP MOTHER!!!! I can not even say the word without starting to cry, augh. Not only do they have a step "thing" but, she is currently 22 years old (yes that means she was 19 when she got pregnant) and she is a slutty Bar Tramp who does not deserve to have the blessing of my children as part of her life!!!! Paul, made a choice years ago that he did not want to be a family man and play the happy little married couple and family and I don't think he deserves another chance at it? WOW dejavu' from my past? Could I please stop mirroring my mother!!! Love you mom but, do not want to mirror your life. I'm so tired of having to fight off being that angry man hater because goodness knows my past has defiantly given me the right to be one. And so far my present life is giving me reason as well? So trying to stay positive and not break out the Angry Girl Music!!!! Trust me I know there is no such thing as Prince Charming or the perfect Man but, I would just be happy with a decent nice one please?
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